dia bukan milik kami

dia hadir hanya sementara..mungkin bukan rezeki kami untuk bersama..sudah ketentuan dia bukan milik kami..sekelip mata die pergi untuk selama-lamanya..namun dlm kepahitan kami redha apa yang berlaku..Allah Maha Berkuasa dan Maha Mengetahui segala-galanya...pasrah dgn ketentuanNya..everything happens for a reason..pray that i would have the chances again n many more..thanks to my beloved hubby who love n comfort me even i know u're not so ok too..insyaAllah we are strong to face it now even hard to accept it at first..n also million thanks to my families n friends who support n  care about me..thanks to Allah i had loving families n nice people around me..almost 3months in my womb n 110911 he was not there anymore..sudah ketentuanNya hari tu jugak dia nk kuar..mmg ikot plan doc nk abortion n D&C pg tu jgk tp ubat nk induce out for abortion abes stok so kena tggu dlu..tp ketentuan die mmg nk kuar ari2 b4 his daddy back to kL..so smpat daddy die tgk n sempurnakan mlm tu jgk..hmm tgh ari dh start skt perut tp x kuat sgt n jrg2 skali..nk ptg makin kerap tp still leh tahan..start kul 5 makin kerap n kul5.30 mmg skt sgt2 huhu tgu hubby lmbt smpi so tpksa  mtk tlg adk patient katil sblh bgtau kt nurse..mmg bpeluh abes duk menahan skt..hmm ni kot org pnggil contraction yg nk bsalin sb miscarriage pn org kata kalo nk kuar skt cm nk bsalin..tp half la kot sb benda nk kuar x besar cm baby..erm dkt kul6 kot dia kuar kt blk rwtn..ms tu doc suh bk panty nk cek huhu tp bgn dr katil rs cm drh yg berketul kuar dgn byk..dh kuar terus rs lega sgt2 n skt pn ilang..huhu die dh kuar akhirnya..em kantung die cm besar gengam lelaki dwsa kot tp janin kecik je cm bsr kelingking baby cmtu je..sb ms scan doc ckp look like 8weeks n not 12weeks bsr die..mayb die x mbsr dgn sempurna..alhamdulillah Allah bg jgk rs half of maternity pain n confinement even confinement without a baby :( insyaAllah semoga ade rezeki kami lg n moga Allah mberiku kesihatan yg baik utk mengandung lg..hmm rs teruja nk prepare brg2 baby tp org ckp tgu 7bln br bli brg2..so kami br start saving je..em teringin 1st child baby boy so kami dh ade nm..mmg dh pnggl nm pn sb ade terbaca kalo nk baby boy ms mula preggy pnggl ahmad or muhammad..so mmg duk pngil ilham dr awl..dunno yet whether juz ahmad ilham or ilham zaquan but 4 sure reserve ILHAM utk die... 

 in memory..al-fatihah