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ada NUR dikejauhan

hmm quite long time no 'madah2 bhelah' ni ye ;p hehe so here some dat i juz find out from my collections..yup ada nur dkejauhan yg tidak kite sedari ;) still believe in Allah no matter what n HE knows da best for us...

K.E.M.A.L.A.S.A.N

aohhhhhh lately im soooooooooo lazy!huhuhu dunno la not into mood to do anything...byk je keje tp tu la MALAS..nk duk lepak ats katil ngadap laptop ni je huhu pdhal xde wat pape pn..tup2 tlena...uhhhhhhh ape nk jd ni??hmm tu la kemalasan sgt menguasai diri dan sy tidak mampu tuk mlawan haha bkn xmampu tp xnk mlawan ;p hmm xbleh jd ni..mesti jd RAJIN...uhhh mn RAJIN sy mhilang??plssss come my dear RAJIN...huhuhu sbnrnye kemalasan adalah kelemahan dlm diri sendiri..dan rajin adalah kekuatan dlm diri sendiri...n now im so weak?? ;p uhh tidakkkkk sy perlu kuattt!!!!dan juga RAJINNNNNNNNN ;)

new timetable

can't wait 4 da new timetable hehe a bit xcited actually 2 start with new timetable ;) hmm but also a bit worried if it's not as i thought huhu worried if  it worse than b4..hmm dunno la dis new timetable will b ok or not but i'm juz like tired with da pupils who are not scared with me at all..sgt penat nk mjerit2 kt kelas 3b tu huhu rsnye da whole school know how hard i'm screaming @3b but nobody in da class listen huhu diorg leh wat selamba badak je..skt ati tul!n now i juz wanna move on with da new class n with da new approaches hihi wanna b more strict  n GARANG ;p kalo bleh la but dunno la caner n how long they will b scare of me ;p emm let me list whether da new time table will b better or not ;) n hopefully no more class right after recess everyday..xsukaaa huhu

Gud :

1. new classes n new pupils
2. cant start new approaches + rules
3. teaching maths n only 1 english class 4 year 1
4. no more class teacher of 3B
5. no need to teach 4C n 3B

bad :

1. hav to teach year 1 english + maths
2. class teacher of year 1 huhu luckily 1A
3. haish teaching maths 4 1B??
4. hmm no more class with 2A..my best class =(
5. teaching period increase from 29 to 31!aiyyo..
6. ohh hav to do xtra lesson plan 4 pj la coz different year

ohh nooooo bad is more than gud??how come ni??is it da new schedule will be worse??katakan tidak...tp kalo ikot kn logik cm ye gak coz teaching time increase from 29 to 31..1hour xtra tu huhu n plus i'll have 2 main subject to focus which are maths n bi...huhu kalo dlu fokus on english jek...hmm ni dh la year 1 maths n year 5 huhu dunno la but hopefully will b better then now..co'z already tired with da pupils i've now..wanna new pupils who scared with me haha poyos! ;p

oh July!

feel like im waiting 4 july..hmm but part of me doesnt want da july comes!arghhh ive mixed feeling right now...hmm but wat i know is my salary 4 july is running out so fast...damn it!!uhuhu im not shopping yet la..tp almost pokai!huhu ni gara2 service kete punye psal la..abes lari budget 4 diz month =( tme2 nk njoy ni byk lak nk kena tukar itu tukar ini...arghhh ni la penangan ade kete..tpksa la trima dgn tabah uhukuhuk..hmm i think july  will b not gud 4 me but i still do hope everything will b ok n not so bad as i thought!rs cam mnggu hukuman pn ye gk haha tp hukuman yg cm dh tau ape keputusannye...hmm so hav to b prepared n receive with open heart huhuhu dunno la..oh july!!

closing of skol break

last sunday i went to senawang as my friend asked me to accompany her for attending her friend's wedding..n after that we planned to follow her ofismates to melaka..felt like a bit bored since we already went there but surprising i enjoyed dis 2nd time trip!;) especially da trishaw ride n night view..n not forget da new friends haha they were so cool n funny!cant forgot da time while otw back from sekam ikan bakar uhuhu my mouth juz like cramp due to laugh without stop ;p n 4 da conclusion, i like MELAKA! ;) plan to go there again juz to enjoy da night trip only ;p wanna ride cruise n menara taming sari @ night..mest cantek kn ;) ari2 xsmpt nk nek sb plan nk g jonker walk..erm jonker walk juz like other uptown or downtown la..but like a shop there..da jonker gallery!da t-shirts there were very nice n cool..da price also affordable ;) iskh kalo de branch dkt area kl trigin nk bli lg bj2 itu hihi nnti nk google la kot2 de  kn ;p oh ya nextme also wanna try  seafood @umbai..last saturday da seafood was so-so only..mayb da place was right, sekam but i guess we got da wrong restaurant..thought that only 1 restaurant @sekam tu..upe2nye jeti nelayan n byk2 kdai..xtau yg mn satu besh so gamble je..k here  will attach da pics of our meals..em overall im glad that my skol break ended well..even though unplanned!n i chose my intuition not to go 'there' is da best way i guess..its' better to give a time n some space 4 dat...hmm b prepared to let go all the things that i've hold 4 a long time... 

kurus??

hmm am i loss my weight??dont think so bcause last med. check up my weight is juz normal..em i mean same as b4 but a bit less than 2yrs back during my working time @MBSB..however it's only 2-3kg  less i guess..n my weight now is more to compare with my study time @UTM..hmm but y people keep said that 'nmpk kurus skrg' uhuhu when is da last time they meet me??*wondering* hmm so sgt confuse skrg co'z i dont feel dat im thin..last 2days my friends had stopped by @my house while they were otw to p.perhentian for their honeymoon..n surprising she said that im look thin!walla wei we juz meet a few weeks ago 4 celebrating ur bachelor's party uhuhu xkn obvious sgt kot coz i think dat i ate a lots recently..n now i notice that my stomach can't stand with hungry huhu 1 day compulsory to take heavy meal..kalo x rs cm nk demam uhuhu dunno y...erm but since they were said dat i'm thin..so i've tried a few old clothes since my study time..hihi surprising they fit well..hmm confuse my body shrank or wat??huhu coz my weight still maintain...hmm pape pn im ok with this size n hope no more increment on my weight hehe but i like 4 decrement on my weight hee wanna get back my lowest weight record ;) emm b4 dis im dreaming weight of 45kg..but now i change my mind huhuhu 45kg is not suit 4 me i guess..nant looks skinny cm skeleton ;p so juz enough keep maintain as now or with my lowest weight record =)

juz a few days left

haish hati mula rs xsedap uhuhu sindrom long leave has start!tomorrow will b off to puncak with da boys..plan on thurs br nk g sna tp ayhsu suruh bdk2 tu blk awl skit haha sb dh 1mgu lbh blk kg duk rileks j..xhengat nk stud tuk exam...hmm so my plan was changed..off to there 1day earlier..hmm bosan2 duk umh pn tp bla nk p mest ati rs xbesh :( syg nk tgl umh n bilikku kot haha tahla..but no choice n hav to..hmm spending da time today wisely hihi wise ke?juz do normal routine n hav plan to fry spiral pasta 4 my cutiey cousins..dh lama bli spiral tu tp xsmpt nk buat uhuhu nk tggu next blk tkt dah xpired kn mbazir lak..so now google da easiest recipe hehe kalo xjmpe nmpknye hav to use my own recipe lor ;p last cooking at home..

room SWEET room

luv my room uhuhu tempat bertapaku suda btukar rupa..no more tokang pecah lg!!hmm my room which has shared everything with me..during up n down..my happiness my sorrow...n i luv my new bedsheet..pinky colour suit me well ;) nicely match with luv pillow, my 26th besday gift from my little sis!n i wish with da luv pillow now belongs to me..it will bring more luv n happiness into my life..*prayer*

 my lappy pn nk mnyibuk ;)

 hehe pink is da nice colour, isn't ?

cinta sempurna

Aku manusia lemah

Selalu terjatuh

Berbeda aku dari mu

Kau berdiri teguh

Aku serba tiada

Aku kekurangan

Dan bila kau tiba

Aku hilang dari kewujudan

Sempurnanya sifatmu

Tulusnya hatimu

Jujurnya niatmu

Tingginya kesabaranmu

Lepaskanlah diriku

Kerna aku tak mampu tuk menanggung

sebuah cinta sempurna

Darimu...

Darimu...

Bukan aku tak pernah

Mengerti dirimu

Ku sanjung setiap kata cinta

Kau berikan aku

Hilangkan rasa itu

Akhirkan semua

Dan bila kau sedar

Aku hilang dari kewujudan

Sempurnanya sifatmu

Tulusnya hatimu

Jujurnya niatmu

Tingginya kesabaranmu

Lepaskanlah diriku

Kerna aku tak mampu tuk menanggung

Sebuah cinta sempurna

Darimu...

Darimu...

DISLIKE dis song..sorry 4 yuna's fan out there but i dislike dis song or mayb da lyrics to b specific uhuhu really dont understand if 'cinta sempurna' y must let go???already found da perfect one but wanna let it go uhuhu so wanna find unperfect 1??sgt xpaham uhuhu apa yg perlu dcari lg??xperlu rendah diri kalo manusia ni semua sama jek..sama lemah dan xterdaya..hanya Allah yg Maha Berkuasa...

Berikanku kekuatan......

Ya Allah...aku buntu..

bantulah aku dan berikanlah aku kekuatan..

sesungguhnya aku hanyalah hambaMu yg lemah..

xterdaya rasanya menghadapi dugaanMu ini...

Ya Allah..bantulah aku..

tunjukkan lah jalan yang terbaik untukku..

berikan aku hidayah dan petunjukmu..

aku benar-benar buntu..apa perlu aku lakukan??..

masih belum kuat iman di dada untuk menghadapi cubaanMu ini ya Allah..

Pelangi itu sgt indah..
dan munculnya selepas hujan namun ianya sementara...=( 

kenapa perlu aku melihat pelangi yang indah itu..
jika hanya untuk sementara??..

aku tau sebagai hambaMu xsepatutnya aku persoalkan...

namun kadang kala hati kecil ini xmampu menahan..

terdetik kala kewarasan kian pudar..kekuatan kian menghilang...

aku hanya lah hambaMu yg lemah dan kerdil...
xtertahan menghadapi dugaanMu ini ya Allah..

ya Allah..ku memohon padaMu..
kuatkan lah imanku dan tunjukkan lah jln yg terbaik untukku...

berikanku kekuatan mengharungi hidup ini..
aminn.....;'(

my year 1 pupils

hmm i never write about my pupils since 6months be a teacher kn..so 2day wanna write sumthing about my little pupils ;) hehe da chosen 1 my year 1 pupils who have 54 pupils that divided into 2 classes..tringat kt diorg sb td br key in exam marks uhuhu almost forgot 1wek skolbreak dh nk abes..su exam dh pesan suh key in b4 2nd wek sb die nk print out slip PKSR..k da story begins ;) i've taught them Pen.Jasmani n Kesihatan..sk je ajar subjek ni sb xyah nk pening2 pk byk kn? ;p emm tp de gak pening nk handle diorg ni..tau2 je la bdk2 kecik byk sgt karenahnye..tp sk sb diorg mmg seronok kalo bab main hehe mmg duk tggu time pj kn so xcited nk ajar ;) pening bla nk jga diorg n nk ajar skil skit2 uhuhu diorg ni nk ikot sk die j nk main tu la main ni..yg laki sibuk nk main bola tp bla bg bkn pndi pn ehehe ade lak yg tkt bola pas2 yg jg gol bla bola xdtg kt die mula la ckp bosan hehe ade smpi majuk2 xnk main sb xdpt bola..adoi la mcm2 karenah..tp cute nk mrh pn xsmpi ati uhuhu em 1B de sorg bdk skt jantg..bdn die kecik je cm tbantut pmbesaran uhuhu kesian tgk..n of course pj xdpt main..so sape2 yg xbwk bj pj kena la jg..tp kn cute j tgk bdk2 klaas diorg treat udin tu..diorg mmg care c udin..ade skali prnh release klas time nk blk..suh diorg bratur..de sorg bdk nm aliff baik je nk tlg bwk beg haha siap ckp 'meh abg tlg udin ea' hihi cute pdahl diorg sma baya je..juz physical je bbeza ;) k lets move to 1A lak..klas ni pn de sorg bdk special..ksian muka encem tp die kena sawan uhuhu ssh sgt nk jaga kalo pj sb die xleh kena pns sgt..slalu mmg die xpj tp 2la ssh tol nk harapkn yg xpj tu jg die..ye la bdk2 so nk kena jg yg pj n xpj mmg penat uhuhu tp mmg ksian tgk c aiman tu..die pn pndi gk cuma 2 la sawan..kalo kt skol mmg nk kena ade org tgk2 slalu sb xtau bla2 die kena..hmm pray 4 him to b better..sk tgk aiman kalo die ceria+ade mood cakap2 =) em 1 thing special year 1 diz year is many twins..got 3 twins..2 twins in 1A which is a boy couple n a girl couple..both are cute especially da boys c zharif n zafri huhu but bleh tahan nakal gk tu ;p then de lg 1 twin separate sorg 1A n sorg 1B.. hehe sorg gemok sorg kurus..xsure la mn abg mn adik tp yg kurus 1A a'an jenis lembut skit..yg gemok 1B fauzan kasar skit tp mnja haha xleh mrh2 skit cpt je majuk..hmm overall i'm hepi teaching them PJK even sumtimes a bit dizzy to handle them but keep on patient with their bhaviour ;)

my sister's wedding

alhamdulillah da event ran smoothly..n everything was ok..my sister finally married..haha when is my turn?hmm only Allah knows..i hav mixed feeling b4 da event huhu risau if i cant stand with da people..but luckily no such things happened..biase la ade jgk 2 3 org yg btanye tp in proper manner la..n as i already prepared so can handle well haha cm poyos je ;p hmm but i can said 'ade baiknye jgk not me which is da one who married 1st in da famili hihi sbnye many things hav to improve since it's da 1st big event ;) all my family members was so bz especially my parents uhuhu so we cant take family photo..actually got a bit mistake from da beginning..suppose after merenjis is photoshot session so br la everybody not bz yet..pape pn hopefully @jhr nnti dpt mik gmbr all d families..hmm tp my little sis mayb xdpt dtg lak uhuhu dh la ri2 die mhilang ke mana time org nk bgambo..i'm also missing in action too but after da event almost done uhuhu later will write about dat..hmm tp kn bla pk2 blk my wish mayb comes true kot..dr dlu2 slalu angan nk anak buah haha mmbe2 slalu ckp ko dpt ank dlu br dpt ank buah la sb ko kakak..tp sy slalu ckp xpe..nnti my sis kawen dlu then dpt la ank buat...

PeLaNgI PeTaNg

Kumeniti awan yang kelabu 
Kutempuhi lorong yang berliku 
Mencari sinar yang menerangi 
Kegelapanku..

Kupercaya pasti suatu masa 
Sang suria kan menyinar jua 
Membawa harapan yang menggunung 
Bersamanya...

Engkau tiba bagaikan pelangi 
Tak bercahya namun kau berseri 
Tapi cukup menghiburkan 
Hati ini

Seharian waktu bersamamu 
Tak terasa saat yang berlalu 
Bagai pelangi petang kau kan pasti 
Pergi jua...

hmm 4 diz current moment..diz song keep playing in mind since yesterday...actually da line 'Engkau tiba bagaikan pelangi' suddenly comes up in my mind 1st..so google da full lyrics n got it!mmg kena sgt2..hmm membahagiakan dan menggembirakan tp sekejap cuma..n i dunno when my 'pelangi' will comes again n stay with me forever..it seems hard coz da rainbow only comes once awhile n cant stay 4 a long time :(