dia bukan milik kami

dia hadir hanya sementara..mungkin bukan rezeki kami untuk bersama..sudah ketentuan dia bukan milik kami..sekelip mata die pergi untuk selama-lamanya..namun dlm kepahitan kami redha apa yang berlaku..Allah Maha Berkuasa dan Maha Mengetahui segala-galanya...pasrah dgn ketentuanNya..everything happens for a reason..pray that i would have the chances again n many more..thanks to my beloved hubby who love n comfort me even i know u're not so ok too..insyaAllah we are strong to face it now even hard to accept it at first..n also million thanks to my families n friends who support n  care about me..thanks to Allah i had loving families n nice people around me..almost 3months in my womb n 110911 he was not there anymore..sudah ketentuanNya hari tu jugak dia nk kuar..mmg ikot plan doc nk abortion n D&C pg tu jgk tp ubat nk induce out for abortion abes stok so kena tggu dlu..tp ketentuan die mmg nk kuar ari2 b4 his daddy back to kL..so smpat daddy die tgk n sempurnakan mlm tu jgk..hmm tgh ari dh start skt perut tp x kuat sgt n jrg2 skali..nk ptg makin kerap tp still leh tahan..start kul 5 makin kerap n kul5.30 mmg skt sgt2 huhu tgu hubby lmbt smpi so tpksa  mtk tlg adk patient katil sblh bgtau kt nurse..mmg bpeluh abes duk menahan skt..hmm ni kot org pnggil contraction yg nk bsalin sb miscarriage pn org kata kalo nk kuar skt cm nk bsalin..tp half la kot sb benda nk kuar x besar cm baby..erm dkt kul6 kot dia kuar kt blk rwtn..ms tu doc suh bk panty nk cek huhu tp bgn dr katil rs cm drh yg berketul kuar dgn byk..dh kuar terus rs lega sgt2 n skt pn ilang..huhu die dh kuar akhirnya..em kantung die cm besar gengam lelaki dwsa kot tp janin kecik je cm bsr kelingking baby cmtu je..sb ms scan doc ckp look like 8weeks n not 12weeks bsr die..mayb die x mbsr dgn sempurna..alhamdulillah Allah bg jgk rs half of maternity pain n confinement even confinement without a baby :( insyaAllah semoga ade rezeki kami lg n moga Allah mberiku kesihatan yg baik utk mengandung lg..hmm rs teruja nk prepare brg2 baby tp org ckp tgu 7bln br bli brg2..so kami br start saving je..em teringin 1st child baby boy so kami dh ade nm..mmg dh pnggl nm pn sb ade terbaca kalo nk baby boy ms mula preggy pnggl ahmad or muhammad..so mmg duk pngil ilham dr awl..dunno yet whether juz ahmad ilham or ilham zaquan but 4 sure reserve ILHAM utk die... 

 in memory..al-fatihah

kita minta drpd Allah setangkai bunga segar, DIA beri kaktus bduri..

kita minta kupu2, DIA beri ulat berbulu..

kita sedih dan kecewa..

namun kemudian kaktus itu bbunga indah sekali 

dan ulat itupun menjadi kupu2 yang cantik..

itulah jalan Allah yg indah apabila tiba masanya..

DIA tak mberi apa yg kita harapkan ttpi DIA beri apa yg kita perlukan..

 kadang2 kita sedih, kecewa dan tluka..

tp jauh di atas segalanya Allah telah mengatur yg TERBAIK dlm kehidupan kita..

dberi kepahitan sebelum kemanisan..

insyaAllah...

raya oh raya

alhamdulillah dh ari ke 15 pose n still x tggl lg..hopefully i can make it full since feeling better now..no vomit since last 4days..jus a little headache je..hmm br amend ct blk ry taun ni..lastwiken dh plan tp bla tgk blk cm duk ulang alik jth-kT byk kali sgt..huhu more time on the road plus waste money 4 fuel+energy 4 facing jam during ry..so plan awl cmni..



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04/09 -Jerteh  huhu sdh jgk sb b4 ni xprnh xblk ry..even ry aji ct 1ari pn blk..n now ry ke4 br blk leh jupe my family..tu pn xtau la blk kul bape sb xleh nk blk mlm ry ke3..huhu bla dh pg2 tau je la mest dkt tgh hari br leh grk :'( hmm tpksa bkorban n ikhlaskn hati terima seadaanya..kuatkan hati untuk raya taun ni!walaupun less time kt jerteh sb 26hb br otw back from prk..pas2 28hb tgh ari dh blk kT sb nk bbuka kt sana..xkn nk blk bbuka lnsg x tlg msk kn..hmm 4hb dh nk blk perak..ni pn mest pg gk gerak sb nk elak jam huhu tabahkan lah hati 4 da sake of new life n 2 sav money, time  n energy..ikot plan asal 4x ulang alik jth-kT huhu cam waste time+money+energy je..beraya on the road je..huhu hopefully taun dpn akan dpt beraya lama skit at my home..esp 1st 3days tu..mmg ry pnjg tp aura ry1-ry3 ni lain skit..dh lps ry3 x rs sgt beraya kn..really hope that i'll b strong to b as a gud wife..insyaAllah...

alhamdulillah

already 4days fasting..n feeling much better today even 2 times vomiting..starting the morning with uneasy feeling but feeling better after long nap n rest..n much better after vomiting..hoping that i can full fasting this year ;) alhamdulillah welcoming Ramadhan this year with gud news ;) i'm pregnant!done the checked up at clinic last wiken n the doctor confirmed that i'm 2months pregnant..huhu already done the test at home but the stubborn me..really wanted to see the expert 1! haha not sure with the result n alhamdulillah the result still the same after met the doctor..may my baby n i are always be blessed by Allah..being pregnant make my body not feeling well..lastweek feeling much better n less vomit or headache..but last 2weeks was the bad week huhu vomit n headache are worse..but after read some articles about pregnancy..vomit or nausea is good as it is the sign the hormone rise in my body..no matter wat i feel..hoping that my baby is good n may Allah bless us till safely deliver..aminnnn

a hope

i'm waiting for a gud news..really hope that it is the real..hmm cant wait for next wiken huhu rs cm nk g skrg gk..but i still want to go with my hubby..so only next wiken is available..n now i only can pray hard n patiently wait..may my dream comes true...insyaAllah...

baby i'm yours

Baby, I'm yours (baby, I'm yours)
And I'll be yours (yours) until the stars fall from the sky,
Yours (yours) until the rivers all run dry
In other words, until I die

Baby, I'm yours (baby, I'm yours)
And I'll be yours (yours) until the sun no longer shines,
Yours (yours) until the poets run out of rhyme
In other words, until the end of time

I'm gonna stay right here by your side,
Do my best to keep you satisfied
Nothin' in the world can drive me away
'Cause every day, you'll hear me say

Baby, I'm yours (baby, I'm yours)
And I'll be yours (yours) until two and two is three,
Yours (yours) until the mountains crumble to the sea
In other words, until eternity

Baby, I'm yours
'Til the stars fall from the sky
Baby, I'm yours
'Til the rivers all run dry
Baby, I'm yours
'Til the sun no longer shines
Baby, I'm yours
'Til the poets run out of rhyme
(fade out) 

have dedicated this song to my beloved hubby..huhu im alone now..missing my hubby so much ;'( facing da problems in early of marriage really make me down..with da henna still on my fingers n no honeymoon yet..pray hard dat our luv will not fade away...tanpa sayang apalah ertinya sebuah perkahwinan?how should we build a family without luv?Ya Allah berikan kami kekuatan serta ketabahan..satukan hati kami dalam cintaMu ya Allah..ikatkan hati kami dengan kasih sayang..sesungguhnya aku insan yang lemah dan x mampu menghadapi dugaan yang berat dariMu...ku pohon padaMu ya Allah..suburkan lah cinta dalam hati kami...kekalkan ikatan perkahwinan kami hingga akhir hayat...amin

 

new layout n design..

here my new layout n design 4 this blog ;) some refreshment after long time no update huhu a bit lazy n also no time kot..juz married n still in honeymoon mood huhu honeymoon ke??mayb yes mayb not but 4 sure we're so bz go here n there to visit our families n again time constraint one of the obstacles beside money..i have no annual leave except da skol holidays huhu so the nearest skol holiday is in August..unfortunately that time is Ramadhan n Hari Raya..but insyaAllah the day will come =) still got long skol holidays in November rite?;) until then enjoy the life as u could!opss dh out of topic huhu k lets continue..hmm cantik x 'muka' baru blog ni?hehe look more mature than the older 1 kn..as time goes on n i'm already moved new phase in my life..so i should more mature, rite? ;) hoping that it will inspire me to be a better of me..more better than before..insyaAllah!oh i'm also an aunt now =) my sister just safely delivers newborn baby girl..n my 1st niece juz born today at 6pm..hehe wait till got her pic n will blog later about her..juz 4 now most welcoming my new blog's face ;)