tak seindah mimpi

hmm tp mimpi pn bkn slalu indah jgk huhu dunno y but lately..since last week i had dreamed every night huhu luckily they're not nightmares but not sweetdreams too..juz a bad dream that will wake me up at 4am everyday n made me had no quality sleep ;( haish cm xcukup je rs 24hrs per day huhu igt hoki dah abes leh fokus umah n upsr..tp still now ade je others thing have to settle..x sabar nk abes cat umh then leh baiki plug kt dlm blk huhu ssh xde plug dlm blk..xleh nk on lampu tdo n tpksa on lampu yg cerah itu huhu slalu tdo camtu xbes gk sb rs cm xbtol2 tdo..lampu terang sgt but i had no choice huhu tkt nk tdo sorg2 dlm gelap plus da house still new 4 me..hmm dark...diz week is dark week 4 me i guess..ahd ari2 stereng lock wat hal..burn rm100 juz like that..argh time nk save ni mcm2 lak kena..dh la nnti ct skol nk kena servis kete..n pg2 isnin dtg skol tyr pancit sb ade skru..huhu smlmnye hal xsetel tmbh lak lg..benda kecik but it makes me down when my mood still not recover yet..n tyr pancit la plg risau sb ssh nk tkr tyr huhu tau nk buat caner tp xcukup kuat nk buat..n i guess i shud find any equipment that will help me to change the tyre b4 it happens 4 third time..so if it happens again n i'll do by myself..xyh nk ssh2 kn org huhu tp ade ke benda cmtu?rs cm ade kot..oh tmrw my 1st child will sit their 1st english exam huhu dup dap dup dap waiting 4 the results..pray hard the result will not too bad..huhu so much complaining..forgive me Allah..not my intend to complain but just wanna burst out something inside to release..i guess writing will make me more comfort rather than just keep it inside..but all this matters really make me wake up n open my eyes..i praise Allah so much for this..as a forgetful human, we always never realized  it if we never face difficulties..'sudah terhantuk br tergadah'..forgive for my forgetfulness...but thank you Allah for Your love n bless..You makes me realized before i not too far from You..hmm disaat hati xtenang..terjumpa article ni..n really help me a lot!really thankful for what i've..great parents, superb family!

Kisah sekeping hati..

last weekend, i was actively blog walking hmm in the mood of blogging but not in writing mode..so just browse around to my friends' blog..n also some of their friends' blog which is i dunno them at all but the articles attract me to visit their blog..n i've posted a poem which is an interesting poem that currently relates with me ;( i like her blog n the way of her writing too..even i dunno her but she inspired me a lot..just put her in my blog list ;) oh talked about inspired..i also have another favourite blog too..dis blog was really good 4 me as a self reflection..hmm when something had related to HEART..our love one..i was just like 'cpt melatah' n sensitive even i know it was good n nothing wrong about that huhu maybe my patience still not enough yet..so this article was so good 4 me to see n evaluate myself back ..should learn hard to tolerate n not selfish..

Sebagaimana kita menginginkan yang terbaik buat diri sendiri, begitulah juga sewajarnya yang kita lakukan/berikan kepada orang di sekitar.

Tetapi, dengan satu ingatan. Jangan pula mengharap balasan yang sama, 100% , terhadap apa yang telah diberikan itu, kerana bila pemberian mengharap balasan, maka dibimbangi tiada lagi keikhlasan padanya.

Justeru itu, mari bersama kita usahakan, walau kasih tidak dihargai, kita tetap memberi. Walau khidmat tidak dipeduli, kita terus mencurah bakti.

ya Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang..Maha Berkuasa dan Mengetahui segala-galanya..ku memohon padaMu agar diberi kesabaran serta kekuatan dan keikhlasan hati dalam menempuh hidup yang penuh warna warni ini..

Ingatlah, andai satu ketika kita tidak mengenal erti kehancuran, kita tidak akan pernah tahu apa yang membuatkan kita utuh dan teguh untuk hari-hari seterusnya.

ALLAH mahu mendidik kita, DIA ingin mengingatkan kita bahawa tiada cinta yang sempurna selain cinta-NYA, yang hanya dapat dirasakan oleh pemilik hati-hati yang mendekatkan diri kepada Yang Maha Esa.

Hati yang sering dilukai lalu sembuh setelah dirawat dengan zikir kepada ilahi, adalah hati yang indah, bercahaya dengan kasih dan sayang dari Yang Maha Esa. Walaupun luka masih ada, namun sifat sabar, reda dan bersedia memaafkan menjadi ‘antiseptik’ yang menahan luka itu dari dijangkiti kuman dendam yang membawa derita berpanjangan.

Akhirnya, bersyukurlah andai memiliki hati yang sering dilukai, kerana dengannya kita belajar menjadi seorang yang lebih mengerti, memahami dan menghargai.

million thanks to Allah for all Your grace, love n merciful..as i still breath..please take me in the best way..guide me every single day..n keep me close to You until the end of time..

ku memohon
dalam sujudku pada-Mu
Ampunkanlah
segala dosa dalam diri
ku percaya
Engkau bisa meneguhkan
Pendirianku... Keimananku

Wahai... Pemilik nyawaku
Betapa lemah diriku ini
Berat ujian dariMu
Kupasrahkan semua padaMu

it comes in many ways..
in many forms..
sometimes it’s sweet..
mostly not..

either we spit it out..
or gulp it unwillingly..
we still have to face it..
so, choose accordingly..

i’m not playing riddle here..
just to summarize them all..
those things that happened..
is happening..
and gonna happen..
in colorful life of mine.. presently..

Thank Allah if it’s sweet..
still do the same if it’s not..
for Allah Knows d best..
always Is..

and you’ll realize that even more..
after everything is over..


that's what we called 'DUGAAN'

blog walking last wiken n found it..hmm so true n really true..n today i have to face it again as yesterday matters stil not fade away yet..;( 

HE knows da best...

" I asked Allah for strength & Allah gave me difficulties to make me strong, I asked Allah for wisdom & Allah gave me problems to solve, I asked Allah for courage & Allah gave me obstacles to overcome, I asked Allah for love & Allah gave me troubled people to help, I asked Allah for favours & Allah gave me opportunities.Maybe I received nothing I wanted, but I received everything I needed. "

lets make a move ;)

Alhamdulillah..dh setel 1st part..rs cm lega skit hehe perasan x sumthing new on my page ;p hee gmbr cm ala ala gediks skit kn..saje bg ngade2 skit ;) lega skit bla dh decide date for our day..xde lg tkt2 or risau bla umi kol huhu risau sb umi slalu duk tnye2..n now juz ready for the ceremony..pray hard dat everything will go smoothly..em brg2 hantrn pn dh bli during sale last CNY ari2..alhamdulillah dpermudahkn..senang je jumpe brg2 huhu plg risau part my handbag actly haha sb im very fussy when choosing a bag ~lol serious sb nye terikat ngn budget huhu biase kalo beg yg bkenan tu mesti costly sgt2..xkn nk spend more juz on handbag huhu not worth it la..byk lg nk guna duit ni..tp kalo bkn sb ade budget pn i'll not spend much money juz 2 buy a handbag huhu membazir je kan..baik blnaje mkn besh2 lg sedap kenyang perut seng ati ;p hehe tp sgt sk jgk sb sy dpt sandals matching dgn handbag ;) even didnt get my clark sandal huhu tp puas ati jgk diz 1!..comfort! ;) hmm now lets make a next step 4 our day..huhu juz left only 2months 3 weeks till our day??smpt la kot sb juz wat kecik2 n simple2 je..moga Allah permudahkan semuanya...amin

sy yg serabut!

yes i'm!huhu sgt serabut btol 2 3 arini..skol n personal life mixed well together..damn!rs cm nk extra energy n time..seriously my time management was so bad ;( really afraid dat i'll lost of control..ya Allah berikan ku kekuatan utk hadapi semua ini..i do love teaching but hate da others skol things huhu sgt menyerabutkan kepala..hias kelas x setel lg..jadual tugas pengawas..klas tmbhn..hoki..argh..dgn buku yg dh berbukit x semak..ape nk jd dgn sy ni??huhu my life so messy..n umh pn xsetel lg!!!oh how i wish i have an assistant now!or something like a magic to settle everything juz like in a fairy tale ;( hmm dlu sblm x jd cikgu..nmpk cm seng je keje cikgu kn..blk keje half day huhu n i think most of people agreed with me..luaran nmpk cmtu tp hakikatnye x seperti yg nmpk..mmg keje half day tp kalo kira2 cm x halfday mn gk..plus minus klas tmbhn siang mlm wiken n koko ptg2 huhu rsnye same je..ade la lbh skit kot compare to others job..tp cikgu kena guna dua2 tenaga..otak n fizikal..3 classes per day shud b fine but 4 classes per day..uhh flat!n tuesday is not lucky day 4 me..hmm tp pape pn seme benda ade pro n contra kn..juz thank 4 what we've n do try our best,rite?dats life..c'est la vie!

a long wiken

dunno y but really felt diz wiken was a very long wiken even da schedule was full ;p hehe tp yg sbnyrnye..asal wiken kt trolak je mesti rs sgt pnjg lol~ since last thursday..have done a same routine..huhu ct pn x merasa ct..cuma arini je skip mls nk g bersih umah..start from ct thaipusam on last thursday we've all out cleaned da house..bgn pg p training bdk2 hoki dlu then ptg p bersih umh..dh settle abes 3 blk then smlm lantai ruang tamu dh bkilat..tgl blk air n dapur huhu bla part dapur yg rs sgt liat tuh..seriously nk kena mnyental...argh sb tu la ptg ni cancel n nk bmalas-malasan kt umh huhu nk rs nikmat ct ;p hmm tp best gak bgn pg2 kuar g pdg hehe terasa cm segar skit even tgk bdk2 ni training je..hee tgk je coz im only da manager n not da coach hehe kalo coach mmg haru la sb lansung x pndi hoki..br td start pegang n pukul2 bola sb tlg my rumet, ina nk train keeper..smlm tgk gtu2 je n mls nk beria sb pas2 ade klas bi lak..hmm bleh tahan lenguh gak tangan arini duk pegang kayu hoki..mayb sb smlm beria mnyental lantai kt ruang tamu..tah bla nk sental dapur xtau la huhu sb ptg sok de traing hoki lg..nnti sok pas blk skol kena g urus air n letrik so nnti leh la mik ms mlm nk wat skit2 ke sb ptg mmg fully schedule huhu umah baru oh umah baru!